----WARNING: The following post does contain some profanity. I apologize in advance, for this is usually not how I am, but I get like this when I am depressed, so all profanity used is just to provide a more accurate feel for my situation on my end of the table... I do not mean to offend with it... ----

During the summer I dated this girl... she was beautiful, amazing, funny, etc... she broke up with me because she moved to New Jersey and didn't wanna do long distance... It took me a long time to get over her, and then once I finally found someone else, the girl I meet does this "I love you, I love you, I love you" thing, and then starts dating this guy, dumps him, tells me she's a lesbian, and stops talking to me... My ex from over the summer (the one who moved) tells me that she wants to stop talking to me because her life is so much less stressful without me, and I just sorta gave up hope of being happy because no matter what I do, I get kicked in the nuts by life... And then I find this girl who I had a crush on for a while but never acted on because she dated my friend, but then they broke up, and I let her know I was into her... and I kinda had a reason to smile in the morning... because she thought it was really awesome that I liked her... But it turns out she likes the guy who put me through so much emotional trauma as a child that it actually ****ed me up in my head... So now I'm pissed at her because she keeps doing this "I'm sorry" thing but she doesn't ****ing understand... not a damn bit... And aside from that I'm constantly depressed, I keep trying to talk to people, but they all ignore me or forget I exist, and I keep living a very minimal and depressing existence... because if it's not my friends, it's my job, and if it's not my job it's school, and if it's not school it's that my Grandpa just got put in the hospital because his Alzheimer's kicked in and he tried to really hurt my Grandma... and I am close to giving up on my music because no one is gonna listen to it... no one gives a ****... I'm just so ****ing sick and tired of being alone all the ****ing time...