I am a depressed and/or frustrated person. I just feel empty. I need closeness and connection and I don't feel like I can get that right now. She even brought her therapy dog in for me and I think that's why I'm really spiraling out right now. I finally got a taste of someone doing something for me that was caring and it was something without strings attached to it, I don't have to return any favors. I don't know if I'd say that I am attached to her really, I think I'm attached to the warmth that comes from her. I've always just wanted someone who cares and I've never had a consistent example of that in my life, and now this week without getting that feeling, the feeling of abandonment creeps in.

she offered in my last session to open up some times for me this week so I could see her but I said no and that I'd be fine without. Obviously that's not the case. I'm too weak to accept help.