*Sexual Context Folks...Beware!!!!

I love my husband, and I hate to post this. I fear that some how he will see this and be deeply hurt about what I'm about to confess. Okay, I've never felt sexually satisfied with my husband. He's never even given me the O before, I've always faked them. I know it's horrible for me to lie to him, but I just want him to feel as though he's pleasing me. Before sex and intimacy meant nothing to me, it felt separate from love, but now that I'm older, I feel a stronger respect, and realize how important sex actually is.

I feel guilty about what I'm about to say, but lately I've been noticing other men much more then usual. My mind and hearts been wondering, and I imagine myself having pleasurable sex with another man.

What should I do, should I break my husbands spirit and tell him he doesn't satisfy my, or should I just continue on being unsatisfied, and accept that it will always be that way?