(((HUGS))) Many coming your way!!!

I am so sorry to hear that you are revisiting childhood years and things you have had to rise above throughout your life by the words of your mother. I know how hurtful it can be to feel like you come last in your mothers life because I have been there with mine as well. Men always ccame first with mine.
I kinda thought you were getting over stressed. Im glad you have realized it and can rise above this and grow from this as well. You are such a strong and amazing person girl, I hope you know that. Im here if you need me.