I hope your wife is doing better. Do stay strong. I know that if I was in the hospital and my husband went to see another girl... that would be the end, like an ultimate betrayal. You're doing a good thing by staying strong. Just remember that suicide is a symptom of the illness. It's not that she doesn't love you, it's just that the lies of the illness were too much for her at that time. At least she came to you and you got her to the hospital in time.