I was diagnosed with Bipolar in May of 2012. I am really struggling with this diagnosis. We tried to just up my depression med at first and I had been on depression meds for a few years. I was getting no where other than more and more moody. I started to really snap over the smallest things. Was finally put on Neurontin and this was causing me to have seizures and every time I called they said to just hold out and give the med some time. So I finally got back into PDOC and he took me off of the high dose of Neurontin, and put me on Geodon. I am on a small dose for now to see if I get any big side effects of the med. since I tend to get some really rare side effects when I get them. So right now I am very moody. I am in tears a lot, do not want to move. My PDOC said we will up it in a few weeks until we get to a stable dose.

Then I was recently told that I am annoying and this has made me fearful of posting and asking for support. I am so afraid of bothering people or hurting others.

My family does not believe in Bipolar or in treatments. So to say the least I am fighting this on my own.

I do have a DBSA support group I go to though so that is helpful.

My questions to people are as follows:

1) what are some ways to help people around you understand that you really are trying to keep stable even though you tend to get moody?

2) I have some friends that want to support me though this all and do what they can to help, What are some suggesting people have for them, or things people have done for you that has helped you? Or is there something people wish friends would help with?

3) Any tips on ways to tell youself that things will get better and that in time the med change will help? I feel like giving up because this has my emotions a mess.

THanks for listening, I probably have a million other questions. I know no one here is a professional, but just looking for friendly responses that may have helped others. Thanks.

Doll