I was but it took forever, and then I was getting better and stopped taken meds.

I don't know, what's up with me, my life just seems to be going in circles. Like a round about. Sometimes I get off tho. And before I have any control I'm back on it again.
Like I want to move on, be happy. But when I get there it's not what I thought. So go back to what I know but then unhappy, confused. Not always but it's half an half.
I dont know if that makes any sense?
The si stops me from thinking it holds my thoughts. But I don't want to si and I'm really trying not to this time. But I thinking about it alot lately