She has left to go back home now, thank goodness. Her visits always feel like an emotional war zone, emotional assult. I don't think she has Bipolar, my father did tho. I am pretty sure she has a host of problems, personality disorder or a combination of, she grew up in a horribly abusive home, the abuse she endured could make a real horror movie, and that is one reason why I try to get past it and have a relationship with her. No she doesn't see it, and trying to talk to her results in nothing except that maybe she will pull something incredibly hurtful and then not talk to you for a year. And since I have no other family, no aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, or father. Just her and my two sisters, she would have no one.

I sure hope the universe interveins, and the move just doesn't happen, because the only way this relationship works is if there is at least 6 hour or more drive between us. It doesn't matter how many boundaries you set and uphold, they will not be respected by her.

At least now she has left and I can do some self care to recover from her visit. The crawling sensation has stopped and I did take a sleeping pill or two last night just to chill out, didn't sleep much, but ahhh it will be ok.

Thanks for all the support and kind words, kind words mean a lot right now.

I wrote something about this last night, kinda helped a bit, maybe I'll put it in the conversations thread instead tho.