i got back in touch with my family when i had my son i wanted him to have a family other then just me.they treated him fine and with the exception of my Fathers side they still do. i guess i also had some hope that the mother would be able to be different as she and i got older.but not sure about that.i guess i hold onto that hope of having a mother.i think that is strange because i could never ever accept any mothering from her i cringe when she touches me even in kindness and attempting to support