I think my counsellor triggers hypomania. It's kind of funny. He's the only person I'd actually show the true side of me to, so I guess that might be why.

I wish my sleep was better, but you can't have everything. Always tired, it's been that way since I was a kid maybe, never had good sleeping habits. Yesterday, I felt way too awake and ended up sleeping past 6 AM. Thankfully, my class starts late today. But usually I'm capable of sleeping whenever. I think my mood was a bit high that morning, for whatever reason.

And I don't know if this might trigger something, so TRIGGER warning:
I've had suicidal ideation for a long time. And the thing is, it hasn't gone away, but for some reason, seems like a total rational and logical thing to do, or at least something I might consider. I can't explain it. I've also had at least two times recently where I've felt like cutting my throat and taking my own life. When I ask myself why, I honestly can't answer. I don't feel depressed! It's downright amazing what medicine can do to you. And please don't anyone worry about me: having suicidal thoughts is nothing new to me, and even if it does seem like a good idea, I won't do it.