Today, the first day of my fourth week back at work following my 5 weeks of FMLA/short-term disability leave, I got my walking papers.

Sort of.

I'm on probation for a month and a half, with weekly check-ins, and if I don't improve A LOT by the end of the month and a half, I'm out the door.

There was a meeting and an official document for my file, listing about 15 separate situations (over the past almost-2-years of working there) where I have proven to be incapable of doing this job.

I'm proud of myself because I didn't get emotional. I just sat there, listened, asked for the date this probation will be over, and then signed the document.

That's it.

After all the worrying I did over the weekend! I really thought I was going to be fired today.

At least this gives me time to figure out what I'm going to do, put my plan in action, and have a few more weeks of health insurance.

She gave me a vague list of what I have to do in order to keep the job. It's just stuff like doing a better job, bringing my work up to their standards, etc.

She said they've already provided training and I should be able to do the job without any more training. So more training is out of the question.

I feel kind of relieved to know that I'm going to have to move on. Is that weird?