Keep fighting it honey!!! omg I want to call your parents and say it to them
Fight it Clinte, the alternative is Hospital again!!
Listen to music, jump up and down, distraction until the urge passes.
Something my 16 yr old son does is stomp his feet a lot, especially walking through the house. And I let him any hours because this is something he's found, making loud sounds releases energy for him. He figured this out on his own to keep from breaking things or hurting himself.
We gotta find a distraction for you. You can always change your path, you can do it, please do it.