Because she said I had a hard day and I deserved something nice.

Do you think that's weird? I asked her why, since most people have foot phobias, and she said because touching my foot is less threatening than touching my head or my shoulder. So I let her. And it was nice.

And later she held my hand, while I cried, and at the end of our session she gave me a hug.

Why do I feel closer to her on days that she touches me, but like there is a chasm between us on days that she doesn't?