((Sky)) Thank you. i have been told by T once before something like I do not trust him. Thing is , I do not understand because I do not see it that way. I would give him the keys to my house and car...I am certain he would not hurt me on purpose but I still have issues with that. I may need to start a thread somewhere in T trust or trust and what it my mean that others see that I don't trust and I do ? I think or fear I am stuck I did start to write some of it and stopped thought up a billion things to do. Never finished it I am I fear just stuck here and don't know how to get past the embarrassment or whatever it is that hold me back. I was at the park today and played it all in my head ..a conversation with T on it. (or anyone really) and I found I didn't even get past abuse before I shut down even in my dream