Hi and just wanted to say, I think you will have closure and its good you are talking about this. Also, reading all you can is a good thing. I went through something like this years ago. I guess thats why I responded to you message, because I can relate. I read alot too, and it helped to understand. Talk about it when you need to that helps. Have you ever read up on sociopathy? Im not saying that she is a sociopath because I dont know her of course. Just keep investigating and youll find the answers.