I agree with Strat. Put the relationship aside for a while and work on yourself. You don't want another failed relationship. Learn more about BPD and how to have a successful relationship before you commit to anything. True, your biological clock is ticking, but it's probably not going to stop as soon as you think. The median age for menopause right now is 51. Just do what you can to stay physically healthy and you probably don't have to worry just yet.