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Originally Posted by shezbut
(((Hellion)))
I can relate ~ That thought used to scare the heck out of me!! What brought me comfort, I can see now in retrospect, is that thoughts like these are very common with panic disorder. I now have PTSD and don't have any of those fears anymore. I do become frustrated with myself for my crummy memory, but that isn't the same in my experience.
You can assure yourself that as you gain control over your panic, your memory will improve & you'll have less on your mind, decreasing the forgetfulness. Are you working with a T? If not, I recommend that you do ASAP, to gain some techniques to help yourself work through your fears as well as understand how the anxiety began.
You should be checked out by a general doctor first, to rule out possible physical causes first though. Once physical causes are ruled out, then go in to see a T. 1.) Diagnosis and 2.) Treatment.
I wish you the very best! Gentle hugs to you....
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Right now I've seen a general practitioner doctor she prescribed my hydroxyzine or something like that for my anxiety, that didn't do crap other then cause the same unpleasantness taking something like benadryl in large amounts. So then I saw her within the last couple weeks and she gave me clonozepam for the anxiety(which I am out of gotta wait till tomorrow or the next day for my prescription refill request to go through. And also Mirtazapine which is a non-SSRI anti depressant with sedating properties as well as a weight gain side effect she gave me to help me sleep and because I complained of being concerned about losing weight due to not eating enough because of stress. the clonozepam works well for reducing anxiety though I need at least 1mg instead of the .5 mg pills they gave me for it to work(hence the reason I ran out a bit early) and the other does help with getting to sleep and seems to increase my appetite not sure if the anti-depressant properties are working but I've hardly been on it a week so its probably to early to tell.
Next appointment is hopefully the psych eval I thought was going to take place last appointment but I don't know and there isn't really therapy I know of maybe at my next appointment I will find out about what is available in that area. Then again I am thinking of telling them how suicidal I am really feeling so they'll likely send me to the psych ward........I don't really want to because there is still that part of me that wants to just try a little harder and not give in to the system. So there is the chance I will freak out at the last minute and they'll have to involuntarily commit me which at the time I'd hate and later I'd probably be like 'well if it wasn't for that I may have killed myself.' I mean the thought of going to my next appointment and walking away with more than enough meds to commit suicide with does not make me feel safe so psych ward its likely to be. I'll worry about the bill later....I suppose.