Since we are human, most of the imbalances in our systems can be "chemical" imo (((hugs))) to all who are upset about these things. (Been there...)

I think your anger towards the meds and having to take them is of course unfounded... Candy, your idea of the ppl who "caused you to need them " or such is closer... but still... what of what is being said is changeable for the better? It's a non sequitur...imo.

Better to focus on what the meds do for you, how YOU are using them to balance yourself out better than you are without them... would you hold the same hatred and anger if you were taking vitamins to correct a nutritional deficiency?

Now, if you can, take that energy you are pouring into this and reroute it to good self care... make a list of bedtime routine items.. set alarms if you need to... eat properly, do a bit of exercise... be the best you can be as you are. Do what you can to help the meds work better for you.

IMO, we each have a path to follow...until we "get it" and then the path changes... sometimes for the better, sometimes not. I know it isn't until I accept the path I'm on and try to look around for the good... I'm stuck on that path.... because I'm there for a reason. Maybe this is too philosophical for your ranting thread, candy and I apologize if you feel I've hijacked it...

but support is what you need... everyone who feels stuck because of having to take meds... it is what it is... there are greater things to experience... try and change your perspective about the meds... mentally fighting against them disrupts your healing within. My T helped me to realize I was wasting energy being angry about taking meds... I hope I can help steer you in the right direction too..