well august 13th is my brothers 6 year mark of him dying he drowned at the age of 24. I can still see in my head that day and how I was feeling and everything its like its happening all over again. I miss him so much. I am not able to be with my family or to go to the lake that he drowned in because I am out of state working and I think it is real hard for me to not get the chance to have that time up there to ponder. My heart aches for him. It isn't getting any easier. I wanted to forget about the day but I just can't. My sister said it was better that I wasn't there because it brought back everything because we drove on the same road over and over again for the 50 days that he was missing and then the area that we sat by watching was hard to but she said a real cool thing happened where we would sit was this sand stone rock shaped like a heart and I feel like that was a message from my brother telling us he loved us and That makes it alittle better. My emotions are all messed up I want to cry but I just can't and I don't know what to feel. I love him so much