Hardware stores are great! Searching for just that right "thing" for the project du jour. Paint is actually my favorite section -- could look at and play with those paint color strips for hours... "Can I help you?" "No, I'm fiiiine.", said in a daze...
Sorry to hear you had the breakdown there, but you are right. Trying to keep it all in and having a hard time expressing that to BF... something's bound to give, and it's hard to deny how very not well you are doing in such a moment. Brings it front and center, like your subconscious saying, "Hey! You! Lissn' up! We're in overload here!"

I'm glad it got you to feeling a bit better. Maybe it's not only the release in the obvious sense, but also that what you haven't been able to articulate is out there now too. Time to get to taking care of yourself, yes? Please do. Be SURE to.

Love you too, Anika! Awww, teared up there ...