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Old Oct 09, 2012, 02:02 PM
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Originally Posted by Hellion View Post
I understand what you mean...though I almost find it worse when people say things like 'you'll eventually recover and be happy like you were before.' well when the hell was I ever happy in the first place I've been miserable since I was a child I just tried keeping it to myself but now I am paying the price with my sanity it seems.

I understand people want to be re-assuring but sometimes its as though none of them understand for some of us the pain is not going to end and its not going to get better. It's done, gone and dead I just feel strange sometimes like I am here but people are trying to bring back some corpse deep inside me instead because maybe that was a happier person than the current one I am.........well its dead quit poking it with a stick. Hopefully that kinda makes sense.

Thank you!!! That is exactly what I was trying to say! You worded it much better though.

I'm not sitting here waiting for things to magically get better. I'm not passive. But so far, all my attempts to change things (and my husbands) have failed. I'm tired of kicking, I just want to sink and drown.
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As she draws her final breath
Just beyond the door he'll find her
Taking her hand he softly says

For the first time you can open your eyes
And see the world without your sorrow
Where no one knows the pain you left behind
And all the peace you could never find
Is waiting there to hold and keep you
Welcome to the first day of your life

Just open up your eyes as I lay you down tonight
Safe on the other side
No more tears to cry
Thanks for this!
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