hi guys,

I am certain I have bpd and I am 28 yo male. I've been dating this girl and she asked me to marry her. Like all other relationships, I was obsessed and super interested in the beginning but eventually became dull. I like everything about her. It's just that I cannot feel emotions well due to my BPD. I want to make this work but the feeling isn't just there. I have never felt love to my family, friends or girlfriends. For gf, maybe the obsession in the beginning is what I call love. I am hopeless in a way that I will never be able to find the one. I feel worthless (not suicidal) to my gf that I can never be better for her or I am not good enough for her. I want to give her an answer but it's difficult. I started seeing a psychiatrist for my adhd and bpd. I've tried adhd medications without success. I am a bit lost and this marriage thing is another big hurdle for me. Although I am happy that she asked me but I am so confused and lost. I was on wellbutrin at the moment she asked me and wellbutrin made me completely emotionless. I saw my gf crying and I didn't feel a thing. I am off wellbutrin for a couple of days trying to figure this out but it's going nowhere.