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My gp wants to give me medicine for migraines, he believes the seizures are caused by my constant migraines. My pdoc wants to give me antidepressants saying that my anxiety causes the seizures and my DID causes the migraines. I saw a neuro after the first seizure and he said he wouldn't do anything thinking it was a result of the mushroom use. Gave me the "Come back if it happens again" speil. So I was hoping he was right, although according to the emergency room I had 3 more seizures (mini episodes) after the first, but they were basing it on my explination.
It took me 3 days to go to the emergency room after the seizure (number one) and in that waiting time I had three episodes where I blacked out and came to and knew I'd just lost consciousness. My fiance looking at me freaked out but all that happened was my eyes started jerking back and forth for like 30 or so seconds before I came to again.
T thinks this was dissociation, the hospital thought it was a seizure deal. Then seizure number two happened and I call the other neuros (not the one who blew me off the first time) and they are all 3-400 for the initial appointment since I don't have insurance. That's literally 1/2 my monthly income and I have bills and a kid so I just skipped going and hoped the pdoc and my gp were right, that it's not a seizure issue but is migraine or dissociative issue, or a "stress" issue. I'm getting a million reasons from them but none of them believed it was an actual seizure issue.
I've been avoiding since day one looking up seizures, I've been too afraid and knew it would spike my anxiety so I've avoided it. But after I wrote this post I went on a few sites and read the information and well... I'm just as confused but now I'm thinking maybe it is a seizure issue, maybe it has been for a long time.
Years ago my pdoc recommended I see a neuro saying he thought I was having more seizure episodes over dissociative episodes, I didn't believe him since all I knew about seizures were the grand mal types. But looking online it makes since why he would mention it.
A few months back I mentioned this issue I have. I get to where it's hard for me to talk. It takes a LOT of work for me to just say a couple of words. I can hear what people are saying but I don't really understand it and if I try to respond it takes a lot of effort to force out a one syllabol word. Reading online this could be a seizure thing. As well as my "spacing out" (people call me space cadet I do it so much it's rediculous) It doesn't explain really my hours to days to weeks to months to a whole year black outs, but it does seem to explain other issues that confuse the doctors.
I was in an accident (nasty one) when I was 6, the summer after I got the dissociative disorder, and hit my head. My brother split his eye open so the paramedics and family were more concerned over him, well the doctor who recommended I see a neuro said he thought I may have gotten seizures from that accident.
So anyways, I made an appointment with the neuro I saw last time since he's only 80 for the visit since I'm already an established patient, it's not until November but I'm doing my research and I'm not going to let my fears get in the way. But I kind of feel like no matter what answer I get it's not gonna be great.
Seizures or DID, or seizures and DID or just me being completely whacked out, doesn't matter which way the dice rolls it doesn't seem like a winning situation
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