Don't think anyone noticed. No-one ever does. I had to take a break for a while as I was hurting.

I see people making threads about others going missing from these forums and wondering about them and it makes me jealous and I wish someone would care.

I've been self-harming again and my nurse had to see it when I had a blood test and flu jab.

Trying to diet and lose weight, growing my hair out, spent a lot of money on makeup today, I want to be pretty, I hate this loneliness. I want someone to love me.

Any tips for dieting? I'm trying to replace unhealthy food where I can with healthier options and taking a 40+ minute walk every day, but I only started this week.

I'm having money issues and I can't really afford food.
I get the 1 meal a day when my mum cooks for the family, but the rest of the day I have to find something myself, or buy for myself.
I literally have not a penny to spend at the moment, because I'm saving up for a convention weekend in London in 2 weeks.
I know you'll say buying the food is more important, but I never get to socialise really, and this is basically a holiday away for me, so it's important to me. I need this break.

We're doing emotion regulation in DBT at the moment and I just can't do it. Talking about my emotions is too painful, it's bad enough in my individual therapy sessions where my therapist keeps making me talk about my abusive past and my family and stuff.
I cried and walked out of the group session because it was so hard. I went back in, but I was so embarrassed.

I've also been doing driving lessons.

That's what's been going on if anybody cares.