Now that I have tried doing it another way I think about it. I want to do it just to see it. Im afraid I will go too far but kind of want to push the limit to see what I can handle. Before it was safer because I couldnt go too deep but now I dont want to have a safety guard anymore. Im not saying I really wanna hurt myself badly, its just now I think about this new way of si and I want to do it again and again