I have learned that the most healing part of the psychotherapy process is the realtionship, not only the techniques..you have admitted in your post that you understand how important your relationship with your T is..I have brought another Therapist into my recovery who specializes in trauma work..but due to anger and abandonment issues..I could not do the work I need to do without my T being apart of that work..at some point it will be ok to let go of being so needy of that relationship..but its not ok right now..and thank God its ok not to feel ok about that..because otherwise the guilt would be overwhelming..it takes a long time to develope trust in any relationship, but trusting enough to be vulnerable with your needs is not a bad thing..and I have learned there comes a time when you self regulate it yourself..when you become comfortable that the other person is not going to hurt/abuse and the abandon you..and then something miraculous occurs the whole therapeutic process becomes the focus and not just the relationship, because you just "trust". I hope you talk it over with your T..and trust in that foundation that has created for you..best of luck..