(((((Inky)))))

This must be very hard on you.

Being overweight myself, I do understand how it feels to be overweight or even obese. But my concern is with the meds you are taking. I mean the OTC meds. I know that some of them do have an effect on the way your heart works because they increase your heart rate and sometimes may do serious damage to the heart. I don't know if the drug you've been using does that or not. I'm just thinking that if you already have a pre-existing medical condition then it would be unwise to take something for weight-loss that would do that. To me that's almost guaranteeing that you'll suffer from heart problems.

To save your life, please let the doctor know what's going on! As Sky said you MUST tell. I think what a lot of people don't realize is that an eating disorder is just as harmful as cutting or any other kind of self-injurious behavior. I guess this is how I see it--self injury. I've been cutting for 15 years and I only realized this when I was in intensive group therapy with someone with an eating disorder. The therapist who had treated us (she was quite amazing btw) treated us using the same techniques. Anyways, it really does become a different form of self-harm.

Hang in there!