I haven't been able to be online until now, and I have a miserable cold. I don't have the energy to respond to all of the posts. I also think it's too personal for me to post more on the forum, and it's best discussed with my T instead. The advice is good but it's all so overwhelming to me. I feel like I'm a failure when I read the posts. I AM a failure. I just want to go home!!! I think we're going Thursday.