Hi Jean, I'm glad you found us! We have a good forum here for Bipolar disorder. You might read some experiences of the members there and see if they fit anything that happens to you? I'm Bipolar II (like darkeyes, must be why we adore each other...

), and if you have any questions, please feel free to ask.
I see you're from Utah. My wife is a Utah native, she was raised in So. Salt Lake. We lived there for 3 years in Kearns, but the snow got to me and we moved back to sunny California. It's a beautiful place though.
I hope you find all the help and support you're looking for here, and I know you'll meet some very warm and caring people here. They are the best! I'm looking forward to getting to know you!
Be well,
Greg