So i have t tomorrow evening after work. We're going to be talking more about my reasons for requesting to start the termination process. I've been thinking a lot about it this past week and have asked myself a couple of really hard questions. Overall, and bottom line I guess, is I still feel ready to take on the world w/out t. But one of my reasons that I gave her is that I don't want to be dependent - and I had to ask myself, is that really what I mean? Or is it actually closer to, I'm afraid of loving t more than i already do? And then I want to ask Chopin - is this what you meant by the 'don't wanna go back' shuffle?