Hello Ticli-Otops,

If I understood, you have difficulty to be sober in your first day?
Have you ever tried to do something that you like to help yourself?

But the first days of being sober are always difficult.
What I can say to you is to keep going your sobriety for your health.

You also said that you are in danger of cutting yourself?

I think that you should call the emergency line or something like that to help you out.

Don't give up and I wish you the best!