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Originally Posted by whenwillitend
Thank you!!! That is exactly what I was trying to say! You worded it much better though.
I'm not sitting here waiting for things to magically get better. I'm not passive. But so far, all my attempts to change things (and my husbands) have failed. I'm tired of kicking, I just want to sink and drown.
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I understand. Things have been better and things have been worse. The roller coaster never ends for me. I have been on meds since I was 17 and I am now 40. There has NEVER been the "right" meds for me. I have ones that work for a little while and then suddenly stop. I have depression and mania even on the meds I am on. Yes it will get better, but it could also get worse. It does for me. I go to therapy and do everything I am supposed to do to get better and I do, for a while and then it all starts over again. For me it will never end and I get pissed about that and feel hopeless many times. You have to find at least one thing for you that makes it worth it. Could be a person, place, thing, faith, spirituality, goals, dreams. There is something. Everyone has something. I choose not to believe that anyone is born without a reason to live. Find yours. Best of luck to you
Lauru
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Lauru-------------That's me, Bipolar and Watching TV 
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
---Robert Frost