I too am struggling with a recent weight gain (last 3 yrs.or so I've put on 50 lbs.). Last night my husband told me he is no longer interested in me sexually (which I knew--we haven't had sex for 2 mos. & we used to be very sexual). I felt incredibly hurt. I also have low self esteem & am bipolar so this sent me into a really depressed & sad mood. I was crying so hard & feeling so bad that I wanted some relief so I took 7 Xanax (supposed to only take 2 at night) & drank a bottle of wine. It wasn't a suicide attempt (I don't think or I would have taken lots more pills). I just wanted to pass out & not feel the hurt. I didn't pass out & continued the crying so my husband questioned me as to what I had done. I told him & he took me to the ER. I don't remember much after that. I must have blacked out. I think I was released after about 6 hrs. They said my blood alcohol was 1.75 which seems awfully high from drinking a bottle of wine, but I don't know too much about blood alcohol.

Anyway, I'm still feeling hurt today & angry, too. It's 1:30 & I haven't eaten yet. Maybe if I just don't eat, I will start to feel better about myself & feel in control more. My husband says he loves all the other aspects of me, but I question that, because I don't think someone who loves you would hurt you like that. He knows how sensitive I am about my weight & I've been trying to diet without much success (one of my medications increases my appetite, plus I quit smoking & entered menopause). I exercise a lot, though.

Anyway, he's gone to work & to play tennis & I'm here drinking a diet Coke & not feeling that great. Just yesterday I was hypo-manic & feeling really good & that comment has brought me down.