when I think about the SA that happened...
sex doesnt cross my mind.

I feel like an object.

no. I dont want responses telling me "you arent someones property you are your own person" because...unfortunately ive heard it all before...and I dont care..
one someone puts you in that position its hard to pull yourself out of that mentality after a lifetime of this.

Ive not had even a month free of abuse in my home ever.
I still live here.

sometimes I cant hear them when they talk to me but I am still able to follow directions. As if my body knew better than my mind.. as if someone has a remote control to my body.