Tigerlilly,

This is the last time I'm gonna post. I understand when there's no battle to be fought with anyone. Until you're open to our help, it's pointless. I'm just going to say one more thing about what I'm seeing, and then I'm done.

All I'm hearing is contempt prior to investigation. I'm hearing that your story is worse then anyone else's out there. I'm hearing that you're unique. I'm hearing that you feel totally alone in the world. You're not alone. And if you really want to find the story of someone who had it worse then you but still managed to get sober, you'll find it.

We might sound harsh, we might sound glib to you. But we've seen enough people who aren't open to suggestions who usually only respond to harsh realities. Those who don't respond end up dead. Those who think they are hopeless causes make that the truth for them. Your addiction is winning. It's the addiction telling you that you have no support, that you can't do rehab, that you can't do AA. It's the addiction speaking. It's not you. It has you locked down in a dark whole allowing you to feel nothing but despair. If you don't grab on to a brief source of light sometime soon, you'll be lost for good. We've seen in all too often. Drug addicts and alcoholics succombing to the disease and ending up dead. That's why our comments may sound harsh to you. We can see your future if you keep on, because we've seen it in countless others. Your addiction is telling you you're beyond help. Maybe if you quit listening to it for 5 minutes and let one of us in, you'll have a chance. I'm scared for you and I don't even know you. I want you to know also, that you help me by posting your struggles. You remind me that I could be right back there in a heart beat. Relapse is an arm's length away for me, just like anyone else, no matter how much time sober they have.

I'm in fear for you. I hope you'll let that little bit of light in and let us help.

Rayna