I havent felt this way in so long. I think the combo of the lack of sleep and the nerve wracking drive here in a car that does not want to be driven has triggered me. I feel like everytime I move I have another mood swing! Im all over the damn grid and pretty sure Im gonna str8 bust in tears in front of everyone at some pt in class... I feel isolated so far from home w/ my car not feeling very dependable at all. It would have been such a blessing to have been able to stay home today and just do some self- care but if I had it would have not only jeopardized my grades for the semester but my whole gpa- which is one of the few things in my life right now I can pt to and say,"LOOK! I did this- all on my own and its great!"