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I find myself swinging from these moods most of the day.
Today at work I was bored out of my mind. The work we do is basic, anyone could do it. It requires no special skill. I've tried to study to better myself while at work, to try and seek a promotion however my co-workers only care about video games, junk food, playing with their smart phones, watching comedy videos on youtube, so its hard to study. Some of the managers are in on this too...I can't say anything, because I would get punished. I try to train the jr. employees, but they see the managers screwing around, so they think why should I pay attention to what your saying...I want to have fun, now.
I work 12 hour days, so when I get back to my room, I'm too tired to study. I do exercise in the morning, so I'm ready for bed when I get back home.
I've cut myself off from reading the news on the Internet, because it makes me angry. It is all negative and I don't want a part of it.
I also get angry at my managers at work. They think they are doing great, awesome things. They are just screwing up the younger workers with a bad work ethic.
I would love to have my own company, or be my own boss. Sure it would take some work, but at the end of the day, I would be responsible for any failure/success. Not play the blame game or throw someone under the bus.
I wish there was a way I could turn off my emotions to all of this.
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