so my whole plan backfired. the Loxapine left me so doped up i couldn't even go to work yesterday. i couldn't even drive. it was the equivalent of being drunk without the booze. so i'm back to the Abilify with the hopes that it a) works, b) i can find a way to fight the insomnia, and c) figure out a way to afford it.

so even though my plan backfired, everyone here gave me a way to effectively talk to my pdoc which is much appreciated.