Well having a rough go of it, Im trying to hang in there but thinking again about a solution, I just want to be good again, be happy again, not go from being overly happy to sad to apathy. Apathy is the worst. I am glad I dont know where my pills are however Ive been cutting all morning. I cant seem to shake this Im so inbetween its painful. I dont want to hurt anyone else, and I feel guilty about feeling this way. I dont really have anyone that would miss me other than my family and I know they would get over it soon. Idk this is all foolish talking. I thought everything was good last night I thought I was ok but its not. Nothing is ok. Im sorry im rambleing just need to get out of this. Thanks for asking I needed that.