I was relieved... Then I grieved what I thought was normalcy, but once I was medicated, I realized that I never did have normalcy in the first place. I know it sounds weird but I wanted my bipolar back, and so quit my meds. Lol, sorry, my point was meant to be, do what works for you. Like Venus,I refuse to see myself as 'ill' way too depressing a mindset for me to adopt.I did however think of meds,therapy and what not,as tools in my bp survival kit. I just have different tools now love yourself,all of u.