Hey, you know what, I think it is good that you took the job. Even if it seems stressful at times, the fact that you have something that is important enough to force you out of bed everyday is awesome.

I know the feeling of not having the right diagnoses and wanting some sort of answer to why I'm feeling the way I do. I'm going through that exact same thing right now, and it really sucks, but I guess all we can do is wait it out and hope that in time we will get those answers that we're so desperately seeking.

As far as the panicking/crying/depression at work goes, maybe try to figure out what triggers you, even if it's a very small thing. Then, use some coping mechanisms as soon as you notice that trigger, even if you aren't feeling crappy yet. Nip it in the bud, and keep it at bay, if at all possible.

I'm here for you! Stay strong.