I feel a little better about my cat today. My aunt is a vet tech and I talked to her all about the process and what exactly will happen. I also talked to my therapist yesterday about what I love about my cat, and honoring her by incorporating those traits into my life. At the same time, I still feel really depressed lately, mostly about the overwhelming sense of hopelessness in the battle against evil in the world. There are always going to be horrible things happening, and I am going to have to go through a lot of horrible things throughout my life. I don't know how to cope with that. It seems like so much : (

My therapist screened me for PTSD yesterday as well, but I don't have any results yet. She's a doctorate student in practicum so she can't really give any diagnoses. I do think I have PTSD, and a lot of my current mental health issues stem from my "traumatic stress" event.

I feel so exhausted lately... mentally exhausted, which makes me physically exhausted. Just want to go to sleep for a few months.