I held out hope for 7 years that they would get the right combo. I get highs and lots of them, but not euphoric, I get mania that is disphoric, paired with psychosis. However, I didnt find that any meds helped me, seemed to worsen things for me.

But I started building up a lot of skills and tools, correcting thinking patterns, cognitove distortions, diet, took up yoga, mindfulness, anything that helped I held on to. I am pretty stable now. I have a blip here and there, but not much.

There is hope that it will get better. It can get better. Sometimes a big shift in perspective helps get it rolling. I do understand, I have been there. I didnt believe it was ever going to get better.

I hope you stick around here. I learnt so much from other members here that I was not getting from a counsellor or psychiatrist, it's litterally changed my life.

Are you seeing a counsellor, or a therapist? Counsellors usually do not do a lot of cbt or dbt therapy, or other types, at least that has been my experience. Just a lot of talk therapy.