I don’t know how to deal with emotions. Or even know what I’m feeling most days. There’s no middle ground, they are either low or high. If they are anywhere in the middle I’m just numb. I’ve spent most of my life numb to everything both the good and the bad emotions. But lately they have been swinging up and down daily and I don’t know how to deal with that. I’d prefer to just be numb again but its like the floodgates have opened and I can’t seem to close them again or at least regulate them.