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Oct 10, 2012, 02:40 PM
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Member Since: Feb 2012
Location: Greenland
Posts: 665
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I've been laying in bed for hours after technically waking up, yet I have been telling myself to wake up early so I can go for a walk or go shop splurge a little so that maybe I could get out of this trapped dull feeling but Ive been failing to do so, I have been constantly in between sleep and awake state, I can't concentrate, I haven't been sharp in class, I give delayed responses. And I can't sleep ever
I am unhappy with my life. Nobody cares about anything, nobody's coming up to me to talk. I ask my classmates how they're doing and nobody's doing good 1 word replies. They all complain and badmouth each other and so I am sure my name has been mentioned , but I don't care... nobody wants to be around a downer. I can't retain anything I learn. I write and write, read, read. My fiance's busy working and so am I. I'm starting to look very tired as someone mentioned...
My future looks a bit better, as opposed to years ago. I have a couple of close people looking out for me, but nothing is guaranteed. An exfriend blocked me I never answered my phone it's my fault, when I decided to call again, I realized I'm blocked this is exactly what happens when you're my friend. I need to apologize I've hurt so many people, I want to say it's not you because I have issues.
Ive been listening to music, watch comedy, hang around him, studying, taking sleep meds, alarm clock, coffee in the morning, eating, eating.  bought new clothes, journaling, going on here, talking to parent. I feel something is missing
I needed to get this out, thanks for reading
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