I am not sure I have DID, because no one ever said I did but after working with a therapist since 2008, sometime in journaling, I realized a girl named Rachael, after being raped, developed and has kept me from having to face certain things day to day. So journaling and thinking (and talking to my therapist) started showing me just how complicated I have become by the things that have happened to me and what I have witnessed. There is a little girl with no name, who wants to remain anonymous, as well as a newer girl who developed, who tried to surpass all this commotion but has not been able to be courageous enough to get rid of any of the others. Very complicated... Sometimes I do wish I could go back before 2008, before all this came to light, but then I wouldn't heal.