@ Leed:
Yeah, I have a therapist and pdoc... I think part of my problem is that my pdoc is, like, 200 years old, and there is this big generational gap. I mean, shes nice enough, but we don't understand each so well..... I know she tries, but I don't think she can really understand what I mean because I get so shy and reserved when it comes to talking about these things. Again, I think that is in part because we don't communicate so well, so I don't feel comfortable with her.
As for my therapist, well...... she is so awesome. I do in-home therapy, and that makes it easier to open up; however, I am on state insurance, and the state won't allow her to come to my pdoc appointments anymore (she used to be able to come with and explain the things I said, using the information I gave her in our sessions). The other thing is, my therapist isn't licensed yet. I mean, she's legit, but she can't diagnose or make any suggestions.
As for the former, I am pretty sure you're right in saying that depression was a misdiagnosis. Then again, I have been in the psych ward nine times in the past two years, and each time I leave, the diagnosis changes a little. During my second hospitalization, I explained the hallucinations, and I was told that I had "Major Depression with a Severe Dopamine Imbalance." I've also been given the diagnosis of OCD, PTSD, ADD (which is one of the only accurate ones, I think), Bipolar Disorder, EDNOS.... the list could go on forever. That is why I am looking forward to my possible admittance into a day-treatment program. I think that, in working with me every day, and in having regular med checks (I think they said I would be seen by a new pdoc once a week or so), they will be able to "crack my protective shell", so to speak, and be able to accurately piece together the info I give them. That is one of the major flaws of the hospital- you stay for a week and then have to go home and relay all the info to your pdoc and therapist, even if they get the information from the hospital (because they have to confirm it and *****).