((((ouch))))
I'm sorry that you are having such difficulty with this.
Personally, I think the term "crazy" is a derogatory term used when describing a person with mental issues.

A depressed person is not crazy, nor is depression anything to be ashamed of...or any other mental illness for that matter. These meds are meant to help make you feel better. Its because of a chemical imbalance in the brain that makes it so that our bodies cannot pull us out of depression by themselves. We need those meds to help balance things out.

So don't worry, you're not crazy. This is a good thing you are doing.

Take care
--Dez