I hate my kids. That's pretty much it. Any issue I have with anxiety or depression they trigger it easier than anything or anyone else. I try to be a nice mom and do fun things with them, but they are such brats they inevitably end up ruining every attempt I make to enrich their lives. If I didn't think it would give them abandonment issues I would just give them up for adoption to some nice family.
I grew up in a big family and always thought that's what I wanted for myself when the time came. I have two kids. They make me want to rip out my ovaries. Every once in a while there is that one nice thing when the kids say 'I love you' without being prompted, but the rest of the time my life is hell and I'm not quite sure what to do about it. I've read articles about how to enjoy your kids more by having more structure and the like. It's just so hard to stand them.
I feel like I need to see a therapist on a regular basis but we can't afford it. My husband is working and going to school, which means he's gone all the time. That does not help.
Maybe things will get better when my kids start school. They're 4 and 3 right now. I do love my kids. I'm just going crazy. Every day is different, but today was hell.
Has anyone else gone through a stage of hating their kids?