Thank you beloved, I don't know why I feel this way so much. I feel like if I can't live without medication than I'm worthless or a failure. But I can't live without them sometimes or I might end my life or someone else's.

I wish I was never psychotic. I wish I was better than I am. It is hard to accept that there is something different or "wrong" with me. I have to move from denial to acceptance, one step at a time. Hopefully the meds will help me to do that. I am doing my best. I appreciate your support beloved. Yours truly, Lightbulb7